Happiness 
How much I long for peace and understanding.
For love, emotion,
sans pretending. 

I search in me
and see her there,
she's standing wordless,
almost dead. 

But words are power,
they are freedom
to let her roar
inside this kingdom

that I call home,
without a house.
Without a harness
but with words

I feel so close
to happiness. 
 --------------- See me 
You subside inside, 
I feel it.
I feel the ugly pain.
I try to smile,
to hide you,
but it is all in vain. 

The blood inside me
rushing.
Oh, make it stop. 
Before I lose myself,
before I vanish,
before I am just a spot. 

A spot of happiness,
a spot of smiles -
"Can I be this?" - 
instead of ugly feelings
and resentment, 
why, they feel so amiss. 

See me? --------------- In your heart 
You wake up, feeling "why?".
Instead, try putting on a smile -
for everything you are - you are enough,
the world will see it 
when it's in your heart. 

